Saturday, July 1, 2017

In Memoriam - Angel Janna

Angel Janna -  A Special Blend of Purple and Pink.

Janna loved purple. Janna loved pink. She colored her hair purple and wore pants that had the word Pink. She was my special blend of purple and pink.

It is not easy to talk of you Janna, our mind fills with grief even after a year. You are no more and that is hard to swallow. It is too soon, too soon!  We are bereft! My body language may not be great at expressing emotion but my heart cries a river. Where did this cancer spring from, which caused you so much suffering? I hated seeing you in distress, during the trials of your treatment. We mourn your loss, Janna, our special blend of purple and pink. We take comfort that the suffering from your protracted illness finally came to an end.

Free from the messy body, the soul can fly joyfully free.
Janna, you move with angels now and converse with God at his feet!

You were an earth angel to many of us extra-ordinary non-verbal kids. This special teen had needed a clue, trapped as I was, behind the Berlin Wall of silence. Angel Janna came along and dismantled that first brick.

I was 13 when I met first met Janna. She had been my friend Tyler’s angel, and she became my Angel Janna too. She saw the intelligent mind trapped inside a dysfunctional and sensory body. Thoughts flowed into the world through my fingers as she taught me to type. She relished every poem and story I wrote, and was as proud as a Mama Hen of every award I won. The ability to communicate was what took me to the next step. From special ed to high school valedictorian. The day I graduated from San Jose City College, Janna was on my mind; I wish she'd been here to witness it and the news of my admission to 8 universities (UC Berkeley, UCLA, UC San Diego, UC Irvine, UC Santa Barbara, UC Merced, San Jose State). Wouldn't she have been over the moon about my getting into Cal.  I still have a host of challenges, but Janna believed in me, she really believed I could stride up the steep hill and reach the top. Belief is a hard commodity to come by in today’s unforgiving and impatient world.

Your task was not easy, Janna, yet you relentlessly carried on. Coaxing communication out of individuals that the world had given up on mostly. You’ve achieved life’s purpose; to serve and make a difference. What an impact you’ve had on many! Communication for us is verily, the difference between graceless and grace-filled days. You had your own personal problems yet cared about ours.  No matter the urgency, your voice mail recording said, “Relax and take a deep breath.” That is truly sound, lifelong advice for this hyperactive and impulsive prone boy.

I miss you Angel Janna, my special blend of Purple and Pink.

Janna passed away 7/1/2016

Sunday, June 18, 2017

Happy Father's Day

My Dad

My Dad
Always thinking of me
Moods from worry about my future
To elation over past accomplishments

My dad
Dives with passion into cooking
Explore hip youtube recipes
International eating, GFCF  style

My dad
Fingers fly over the qwerty keys
Searching for solutions that may help me

My dad
We watch basketball and football heavily
Sprinkles of cricket and tennis thrown in
Warriors Champs 2017

My dad
Quite the best Bud really
Happy  Father’s Day

Plans. Dad and I will have a father son lunch on sunday.

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

RIP, Fruit Flies!!

RIP, Fruit Flies

RIP, ye wee beasties
Know your short life was lived not in vain
Young minds watched you metamorphosize
Wild types, sexing, and X-linked white eye
Mendelian 3 generations after fly napping you.
Science owes much to you.

Drosophila melanogaster , thy name
Fly Morgue in a Biology Lab...
... your final resting place
Or even better... death rejoin the carbon chain.

The only regret, O most worthy Fruit Fly
You missed flying around real fruit!!

Saturday, April 8, 2017

The Person Inside

The Person Inside

Set in stone seem your opinions
Can't do this Cant do that
What pray should i tell you?
Just reach down into this bright mind

Can't possibly communicate you say
Unless words pour from my mouth everyday
What pray should i tell you?
Written words is the technology of this age.

No intelligence possible you say
Inside the body that acts a certain way
What pray should I tell you?
Big mistake to judge a book by its cover

Help this person is your goal you say
Careers and promotions you get along the way
What pray should I tell you?
Are you helping me or you.

Human evolution is natures creation
Thousands of years has existed mankind
Yet opinion is set by a few who limit
The potential of the magnificent human mind.

Comfortable are you establishing a zone
Putting us in slots convenient to all
Have you thought to delve into my mind
Change your mind is what you will find.

- Hari Srinivasan 1/12/08

Monday, December 12, 2016

The Fundamental Theorem of Hari

The Fundamental Theorem of Hari

If I were a mathematical model,
A dynamic differential enigma I would be

Mind with limits to infinity plus infinity
Constrained by the equation of disability
Differentiate to optimize the formula of possibility
To produce the set of functions that maximizes me

Set of multivariable functions named Hari
Integrate the area under my mental capability
A smooth curve an impossibility, with denominator reality
Bumpy exponential curve and discontinuities, an inevitability

A rate of change of perpetuity
Seeking the Fundamental Theorem of Hari
Unresolved math model Hari
Waiting on solutions, estimations,.....
…...even approximations.
Data-mining mind neurons iteratively

-Hari Srinivasan 12/12/2016

Saturday, December 10, 2016

Impact of Autism and Coping Strategies in Indian-American Families

Paper done for Research Methods in Psychology Class
APA Poster Below. Full Research Paper at this link

Impact of Autism and Coping Strategies in Indian-American Families.
Hari Srinivasan
San Jose City College, 2016

APA Poster

This paper explores the impact of autism and coping strategies amongst  Indian-American families living in the San Francisco Bay Area. Descriptive information on the challenges faced, coping strategies and a stress score (as measured by the Cohen Perceived Stress Scale) was gathered from 18 Indian-American parents of individuals with autism. The study finds that  high levels of stress amongst the ASD families (sample mean of 19.2) compared to the non-ASD families (population mean of 13). The study found that the age of the ASD family member does not seem to influence stress levels. There is however  a direct correlation between the severity of challenging ASD symptoms and the level of stress.  

This study suggests that if causes are better understood about the underlying physiological conditions for each specific case of autism, rather than classifying autism into one broad bucket, it may lead to more targeted treatments and better support systems could be put in place as well.

Positive outcomes for ASD individuals lead to less stress for families. Families also need more comprehensive support and resources in planning and supporting the needs of their ASD family member. Less stress for families leads to better outcomes for the ASD individuals.

Thursday, December 1, 2016

Case Study in the Neural Basis of Communication Challenges

An Assignment on Speech and Language 

Hari Srinivasan 

Psych 22: Biological Psychology

The chapter on the Physiology of Speech and Language is frustratingly close to home for me as I am severely limited by both my expressive speech and almost very poor handwriting skills (along with other stuff). So I thought I would look at the concepts in this chapter in terms of a case-study of an impacted individual, namely me.
A Case Study in the Neural Basis of Communication Challenges
Hari S (hereafter referred to as H) is a college-going young adult, who was diagnosed with Autism at age 3. His was a case of regressive Autism in which infants who seem to develop typically and meet developmental milestones,  lose much of their language and other skills soon after the 18 month mark. H exhibits both speech and motor (writing) challenges. This report is an attempt to delineate H’s communication challenges along with the current scientific knowledge about their neural basis.

Sunday, October 23, 2016

Winds of Change

Winds of change

Mangled Cognitive distortions
Oppressive muddy skies
Swallowed by emotional whirlpool
Lost anchor to the gentle breeze

Tornado rages on
No respite...
Blazing an unwanted path
OCDs gleely plunge in.
Anchor buffeted about

Login needed anon
Try, try, But how?
Drowning mind needs to stretch
An anchor out of reach
A tsunami at sea, tailspin

  • Hari Srinivasan 10/23/2016

Thursday, September 15, 2016

Autism and the ANS

A writeup I did for my college Biological Psychology Course
Hari Srinivasan
Psych 22: Biological Psychology

Autism and the ANS
Autism as a spectrum disorder is still not fully understood as it comes in many variants which indicate varied underlying psychological basis. This paper discusses the role of the nervous system in Autism, specifically the Autonomic Nervous System. While research is underway in the path towards its biological underpinnings, a much better understanding is required before it can translate into meaningful treatments in order to improve the quality of life for the affected ASD population.  

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

X Box and a Dog

I had a visit from my 2 delightful little cousins the last couple of days. 
Its been a few years since I saw both Kayva and Ananth.
Childhood is truly remarkable! What can I say but repeat Ananth's words.

X-Box and A Dog

“You are so Lucky!”
Says the little boy
“X box and a Dog!”
Basics of Life!

Six years and counting…
Innocence. Simplicity.
Satisfaction guaranteed
If Minecraft is thrown in.

Material world is finite
Needs easily  fulfilled
Flourishing neural pathways
Makes the circle complete

In between, the Tween
Talented little girl
Jewelry and baubles
Decorate her self

Multicolor watches
A passion for cars
But that does not stop
From being Big Sis Boss

Lots of Hugs and Kisses from Big Bro Hari